So far I'm still getting the hang of this site which means I'm going to be a frazzled newb for a long while. Just bare with me guys we'll be fine. Since i don't really know what to write about today i will start with a little story about my life before all this Phantomhive stuff.
When I was around twelve i noticed that i was no longer a 'popular' kid. I also found out that i was a little bit more than just childishly chubby. Of course like any preteen I wanted to fit in so i did what ever i could to assimilate (talk like an air head, act like a nut, hang around the kool -yeah retro K~) girls and ignored everything i really wanted to do. Be me.
I'm glad that all that didn't help me at all. I looked like such a wanna-be and, yeah, that broke my heart but trust me guys we're getting to this whole full circle ring-ding-dong (SHINee <3)
Skip a couple years of still being a loser who hated everything about herself and then suddenly i hear about a little fad with the kiddies.
It was called being Emo. To be an Emo (according to that one jerk T^T') you had to cut. And thats what i did.
You know what i learned after spending another year as some dumb stereotype? I'm an idiot.
You know why? It shouldn't of ever mattered that i wasn't 'Kool' because at that age the only popular girls were the ones who developed too early and started to act like they worked in the red light district at the age of 13 (more than a scary thought but sadly its true). The only reason my weight should matter would be from a health prospective not a vanity-forced one. :3 now I'm a proud 130 Pounds and am healthy as a little pony ^-^ and no I'm not model like in any way but i love that about me. (maybe not every day but we're human). I was an Idiot for throwing away everything i loved (anime, awesome novels and my family) and now i know that.
Why did i tell you all of this?
Because i wanted you to understand me a little more :3 also some of us share similar pasts and even presents. I want you to always know you are never alone.
That the end of this little story!
Much ♥ from Ms. Phantomhive and the Penguin crew!
Have a happy and healthy day.
